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Persona 3 Portable

2010-09-11T12:12:00.000-05:00

Last weekend I decided to dust off my old PSP and update the CFW on it to run the newer games that have come out since the last time I actually used it. One game in particular that I had to play was Persona 3 Portable. I have always been a fan of the Shin Megami Tensei series and Persona 3 was an amazing addition back on the PS2. Persona 3 Portable is well..the portable version of Persona 3. They added some new content in which you can play as a female lead character with a different story progression.

You play the role of a boy or girl who has the ability to summon multiple persona's. These persona's are kind of like adult pokemon. They are each able to cast spells and give you the ability to fuse them with other Persona's to create...you guessed it..more persona's.

The reason why Persona's exist in the first place is a mystery. The best description that they give is that they are a reflection of who you are based upon the strengths of certain emotions. These emotions are strengthened by the relationships you make and strengthen with NPCs in the game along with doing normal tasks day by day. For example some Persona's' strengths are directly determined by your academics score which is increased by studying at your desk in your room or the library. Others are strengthened by bonds that you have with peers.

So why are Persona important? Well..every night at midnight (aka the Dark Hour) the school that you go to transforms into a labyrinth called Tarterus that is filled with enemies called shadows. These shadows have become more aggressive and are attacking people and infecting them with extreme lethargy. The catatonic states that the people are put into cannot be cured so it is up to you and the people that you meet to explore Tartarus and find out what the hell is going on and fix it.

Dark hour happens every night at midnight and it is an extra 60 minutes of existence that no one is aware of. Anyone who is not able to summon persona are transformed into standing caskets. It sounds really fucking weird, I know, but the game is absolutely amazing.

Anyways I hope everyone has a safe and happy weekend :)

~Sacif~

Deus Ex: Human Revolution first gameplay

2010-08-13T19:36:00.001-05:00

This is another reason why a new compy is being built :D

Space Marine Interview with Raphael van Lierop HD

2010-08-13T19:22:00.001-05:00

I love the Warhammer 40k universe. I am so excited to see how well this game turns out.

Hellsing OVA 8 Preview

2010-08-12T19:14:00.001-05:00

I absolutely love Hellsing. The first 7 OVAs I went through twice. Now the 8th is soon to follow!

Druid is now a Tree

2010-08-12T18:50:00.000-05:00

Since I started working a later shift I had been looking for a raiding guild that started after I got home from my 2pm - 11pm shift. After a couple of weeks of looking as well as reverting my Alliance druid over to horde I found a good solid group of people to start doing some raids.

The Guild is called We Raid at Midnight and for the past couple of weeks I have been running with them and I have to say they are really laid back but at the same time progress through the new content quickly and provide positive feedback to the players that mess up.

I had been raiding with them as a ranged DPS. Last night though they needed a healer so I switched my spec to restoration and went with them. I have to say I kind of missed healing raids. I got a couple of healing items as well. Most importantly got a 251 dagger that is made for healing:

I hope that our successes continue. I really want the Kingslayer title for my cow man :)

The New Build!

2010-08-06T02:40:00.003-05:00

I have been wanting to do a fresh build on my gaming machine for a long long time. About 10 years ago I entered the foray of custom build computers and I LOVED customizing machines and doing the research on each individual pieces to get the ultimate build for the lowest cost.

I used that machine for 7 years before it finally popped. Well, everything didn't pop but enough that I knew better than to waste the money on buying old parts and decided to start saving my samoleans to do a new build. The problem is that my parents are very over generous and they caught wind that my machine had popped and went out and bought a newer Acer (this was almost 3 years ago) and I have to admit I am really impressed with the upgrade capabilities hat come standard with their base models. Rather than doing a complete rebuild I upgraded the machine they bought me and have been using that up until now.

While doing some packing/cleaning for the move next month I uncovered a computer case that I had completely forgotten a friend had sold to me for cheap. It is still gorgeous and I decided to start fresh with it as the foundation. Here is a pic of the case (pulled from the internets):

As you can see it is muey gorgeous and I love the sleek design. :D I am really stoked about putting this bad boy together. Tonight I ordered one of the TB HDDs and the processor. This is about as much as I could really afford with rent due today but with the next paycheck I hope to have it up and running.

A month from now I will be in full upgraded computer mode.

Happy Friday all!

The Old Repulic

2010-08-02T01:24:00.000-05:00

For a couple of weeks now I have been on a major Star Wars binge. I have always loved Star wars especially the old world lore from well before the creation of the story that most know of Anakin, Luke, Han, etc.

Next year Bioware will be releasing their new MMORPG Star Wars: The Old Republic. The more I read and talk about this game the sooner I would like for it to be real now rather that a long time from right now. Books are coming out that are based in the same time as the events that will take place in the game. I am happy to say that is it probably one of the best reads from the Star Wars universe that i have read since the Thrawn saga. If the story tellers at Bioware are using the same style of writing for their quest lines this game is sure to keep me hard nippled for a long long time.

The Shadows

2010-06-24T03:06:00.001-05:00

I have not written any poetry in quite sometime. I decided I need to practice some prose and work on the voices inside of a poem that has either a story or perspective. This is probably some of the worst work I have done in a long time but if you like awesome. If not well we share a similar disinterest :)

The Shadows - Sacif

As I rest my head upon the shadows
A thought runs through my mind of a time that once was
Broken dreams of a long love lost
I call unto the shadows
Take me

As I walk with the shadows
What I am now I can never be or will be again
A shattered resemblance of a broken man
Torn by the grief of time and loss
I called unto the shadows
Take me

Broken and torn upon the shadows
My longing and ache are as much of me as I once was
I long for the days before the shadow
But I called upon the shadows
And in the shadows I shall be

Maybe I am just not meant to understand.

2010-06-23T00:32:00.001-05:00

For the past couple of months I have been running a bit of a social experiment. That social experiment is called "trying to get a girlfriend" and the results are not impressive. Not because I am having trouble finding a girl I can be with but better yet trying to find someone who is not pushing the drama meter into the red.

Lets start with subject 1. A social butterfly and self proclaimed bitch who has nothing better to do than to drink and cry over the troubles that plague her life. I am astonished to think that so much effort can be afforded to whining about how shitty someones life is or how someone is treating this sad individual. I decided to play it slow. I liked this girl and yet a part of me (probably the rational side) kept telling me "don't do it, bitch is crazy, don't do it, I'm fucking warning you."

I did it.

The end result is humorous to say the least. First of all I don't know if I am a mystery to the universe or if people just see me as more complicated than I am. I offered to go out to dinner, have basic conversation and see where life took us. Had a nice plan all laid out about how everything should go and of course when dealing with people of the opposite gender everything gets straight slung the fuck sideways. All of a sudden I hear I am some raging pervert who wants to stick my Johnsonville into everyone's bratwurst. Guffawed I attempt to clear the air and figure out what the fuck just happened with no result.

I thought it was over so I cut my losses and just stopped talking to this person. About 2 months later we meet up again. I am shit faced hammered and we start talking and one thing leads to another and we are booking a room at a Comfort Inn. Now in my mind I'm trying to figure out what the fuck is going on and the overall experience was so confusing and weird that I of course threw all judgment to the wind and did the deed with this person who already had concerns about my integrity..proved her right I guess.

The next morning after the drink wore off and my mind started working again I thought it would be best to try and do...something...I mean, what the fuck do you do when you just did what I did under those circumstances. So I asked a very basic question. "Do you like me?" The response was a yes so I thought I just hit a home run, mind you I had been crushing on this girl for some time so I was ecstatic.

Until....that week. Once away from each other the weirdness came back. My calls and texts went unanswered. Me thinking rationally again I thought it would be nice to go out and talk about what happened. But no go we decided to just stay friends and all is now as they say history. However I still find it quite humorous that in a way she did to me exactly what she was afraid that i was going to do to her. Ironic? Maybe. Just a drunk bitch needing a lay? More than likely but of course I end up being the asshole..gotta love it.

Eventually I shall chronicle all of my resent findings when trying to attract/appease/bargain with the opposite sex but for now I shall leave it at this.

Best recap of E3 2010. Thanks PA you never fail to please :)

2010-06-21T16:16:00.001-05:00

War for Cybertron Demo

2010-06-21T15:36:00.000-05:00

This weekend I was finally able to get my hands on some Transformers: War for Cybertron multiplayer action. I have to admit I did not have high hopes for this game when I first heard the announcement of its existence. I was expecting robot on robot action done with mediocrity and only the Transformer name-value in mind. Even when I saw trailors I had to resist the urge to become excited since I have seen pretty trailors before where the end result was lacking in originality and/or fun (Too Human comes to mind).

So it is with a happy heart that I can say that the multiplayer demo has surprised me with its awesomeness. There was only one playable map (Meltdown) and two playable classes (Soldier and Scout) with limited customability for each. This was honestly the only negative aspect of the demo for me. I wanted to be able to play with more of the toys that they have in store when the game finally releases.

The soldier was my first and current favorite choice for some robot on robot on action. I prefer heavy hitters to the small and quick bastards . I started off with a mini gun and a rocket launcher as my loadout and there were only 2 options available for "special abilities" the first of which being able to swing a big metal club around your head.

All classes get a melee ability, the soldier gets a big mace looking thing and the scouts get what looks like an energy sword. Let's just say the whirlwind helped me get an easy 3 kills when I found myself in the middle of combat. The other ability is the ability to hover around on jets for a limited time (yawn).

Of course each class gets a vehicle type assigned to it. This is f'ing transformers after all right? The soldier wheels around in tank form while the zip zooming scout gets to cruise around as a little race car. Both are very awkward to control at first but once there is some room to roam around in the controls become easier. Corridors sucked in vehicle form. This may be due to the fact that I abhor racing games and utterly suck at them.

The graphics are average. Nothing to write home about but at the same time the explosions and designs are what you would expect from a Transformers game. During combat I noticed very little slow down and everything was very smooth. The only aspect I hope that they change is the level of detail while in vehicle form. They didn't look bad but at the same time you would think they would expound on the coolness a bit more.

Overall I am very happy with what this game is turning out to be. I was going to wait for some reviews prior to purchase but after getting a taste and hearing more about the campaign modes this has definately been bumped up to launch day purchase (well at least close to launch day)

~Sacif~

So I Picked Up Dragon Age...

2010-02-14T21:00:00.001-06:00

Last Saturday I made the mistake of picking up yet another RPG. I had played DA:O on the PC for a little bit and I had been wanting to get a copy for the 360 since my computer cannot run it in "pretty" mode. I should not have done this. Once I started playing the game it sucked me in so hard I have a hicky on my ass...again...don't ask.

I started off playing as a mage pew pewing stuff with my stick and casting spells and being all magey. Got to level 11 and decided I want to check out a duel wielding warrior tonight and even though I have played through the first missions a couple of times now it still has not bored me.

As a comparison between playing a front line character like the warrior and a ranged dps'er I do not know which I like better yet. Granted I have only been playing the warrior class for a few hours (I'm at Loathering now) and have not become bored yet so that is a good sign.

The goal is to have the story line of DA:O beat by the time Final Fantasy 13 comes out. Even if I am not done with it before March 9th...well let's just say that FF13 is going to take precedance because I have the mf'ing day off from work.

I am praying to whatever divine power hears me that FF13 is at least somewhat better than 12. I liked 12, don't get me wrong and I feel a bit selfish asking for a game better than 6 (still my favorite FF game) but I still have the ability to dream and my dreams are filled with an epic Final Fantasy adventure.

A Thank You To a Lost Love

2010-02-08T20:25:00.001-06:00

Never before has anything ever felt so special, so real, so necessary. Even now as I reflect on the life that we shared it is with an open heart that I realize that I would do everything all over again and relive the short time we had together.

This is my heaven, my hell, my never ending search for that feeling again. My lone regret is that I will never be able to thank you for helping me realize how foolish this world is.

Falling away from the creed with massive effectiveness.

2010-01-26T21:31:00.000-06:00

For the past few days I have immersed myself in the world of Etzio in Assasins Creed 2..however...

This morning at 12am I picked up my copy of Mass Effect 2. Yesterday I made certain that today would be reserved for Shepherd and the crew. Once I got home and the grand unveling of what is Mass Effect was underway I am thoughly impressed with the improvements that have been made over the first part of the series.

Everything feels so right, the combat makes more sense (ammo system and weapon enhancements) and everything is much prettier. I do not usually look at games from an angle of how pretty they look. I am mostly focused on game play, attention to detail within story mechanics, and character development/stoy lines within RPGs. However, this game is pretty.

I will not release any spoilers to those who have to wait to pick this game up. I will give a forewarning...stuff gets real, very quickly. The first hour of the game is very intense and the action is neraly non stop. The opening cinematic was breath taking and almost disheartening. Something very valuable and nescessary is destroyed and almost a sense of peronal loss is experienced since the first game relied heavily on what is taken away in the second.

I am at about the half way point through the game and I have not gotten bored with it. The quests are interesting as well as meaningful to which path you want to take. The renegade and paragon paths are still existent in the second game and there are a lot more choices at your disposal to determine what type of player you will be. There are also special abilities that are gained by you and your party that are directly related to your choices and how loyal they are to your cause.

Once again I do not wish to divulge any secrets of the game so please do not ask. If you liked the first game, pick up the second you owe it to yourself to play what I will consider now as one of my favorite gamer series of all time.

360 Elite and Asssins Creed 2

2010-01-25T00:07:00.000-06:00

Finally the day came where I was able to afford getting a 360 again. I have been trying to figure out exactly what I wanted to pursue more. I have determined that even though I love music I would rather keep it as a secondary hobby and focus on gaming and game journalism.

Friday 'happened' and all of a sudden I had money burning a hole in my pocket and I had been wanting to pick up the 360 prior to going to work and get a few hours of play in before I had to leave.

My paycheck landed onto my card around 11:45 i put some "outside" clothes on (I usually run around my apartment in sweat pants and a t-shirt) and head over to Granite City where a 24hr Walmart store is located. I stopped at my local Circle K gas station to get an energy drink (since the plan was to be up till about 5, get a couple hours of sleep and head to work) and while I was there, a cop pulls up and starts frisking a man who was standing outside of the store.

I drive all the way out to Granite City which thankfully is a straight shot from my apartment and not too long of a drive (about 15 minutes).The sad part is that when I reached Granite City, Walmart twas closed. This made me pissed and happy. Pissed because I would have to wait till after work to purchase my 360 and happy that I could at least get more sleep for work.

And then work happened...:(

Clocked out right on time headed towards home to my local target and picked up my new 360 Elite and Assassins Creed dos.

The reset of the weekend has been a mixture of movies and gaming. AC2 is absolutely amazing and I have very little negative to say about it. Although one bug or glitch or whatever I run into from time to time is when I do a leap of faith off of a view point rather than doing the leap of faith I fall to my death. More than likely its something that I am doing wrong. This and a couple of weird camera herks and jerks that have also killed me are all that I can complain about right now. The tons of side missions and quests that are available feel original and I am glad that every new mission I take feels like I have never done it before.

I am about half way done. I am wanting to finish before Tuesday since Mass Effect 2 comes out. Then my life will be complete until March 9th when Final Fantasy 13 comes out. This is going to be a great year for gaming. 2009 sucked for a lot of reasons, 2010 will be the shit!

Nice and Easy

2010-01-11T02:16:00.000-06:00

I love the weekend. I give myself a few little chores to do so I don't feel like a complete and total slob and the rest of the time is spent doing what I love to do most.

Playing video games
Forums
Watching anime
Reading
Eating

There are in no particular order. Some weekends I will watch a lot of anime while others will be devoted to the site, with any other combination of the rest.

Leah is a good friend of mine and she came over this evening to hang out. We had not hung out in a long time and Friday night she talked to me and told me that she had recently had a bad ending to a relationship so tonight we got the chance to talk about stuff.

I am really wanting this week to go by quickly. Whitten started up a new 4e DnD campaign this weekend and it was nice to be able to play a table top RPG again. I am playing a Warlock named Sardon who has kind of taken a leading role at this point in the story. His back story will consist of him trying to prove that he is beyond the evilness of his family. I cannot wait to see how his story progresses!

Anime Fest 2010!

2010-01-05T02:35:00.000-06:00

I have had the last 5 days off and Wednesday I will be making my glorious return to Work Order Accuracy :'( .

So what have I done with myself over the last while...why absolutely jack shit of course! With a nice mixture of Counterstrike, Suikoden Tierkris (RPG for the DS) and Lunar Knights (Another RPG for the DS) along with catching up on some anime that I have been needing to get into.

Currently I am going through the Soul Eater series again. This is by far my favorite anime series. Currently Soul Eater runs 51 episodes (2 seasons) and I pray they bring the new manga material into animated form. Hell I wish they would bring the manga over to the US quicker. In Japan Soul Eater is up to volume 60 something and in the US Volume 2 will release in February. FML I need to know how the story progresses. I am half tempted to sign up for Japanese courses in college. HMMMM maybe an Internation Business degree with a minor in Japanese studies :D

Second on the list is a new anime that I found called Dragonauts. Freaking amazing, so good in fact I do not want to watch the last episodes but I have to since the story is so well done that the ending muswt be superb (if it isn't Wayne Brady is going to have to choke a bitch)

Last but not least is Evangelion: Neon Genesis. Sadly the version that I have is english dubbed so I have to listen to horrible American voice actors but the story is very entertaining and perverted which is a-okay in my book. I hope to have this series finished (although my understanding is that there really is no true ending to it because the creator went clinically insane during the production of the second and final series and third movie).

So yeah you must be thinking I am a big nerd, which of course, you would be right. :)

Reflection

2010-01-05T02:20:00.000-06:00

As I am going through the recovery process of a relationship that was very painful I have started to look back at the choices that I have made and realize that I am my own worst enemy. I am a relatively happy person but I always feel alone and I find it difficult to let anyone get close to me. Even though the issues that we had were well founded in the evidence and situations that came to pass there is a lot that I should of held myself accountable towards.

I loved you and wanted you to be safe and secure and have the ability to understand me. I should have known better. Eventually I will realize that a relationship that was built as quickly as our own has no real foundation in permanence and any understanding is brutally superficial.

When I brought you here knowing what I know now everything would have been different. Recounting the past is easy when standing at the thresh hold of the future. I was blinded my own desire to not be alone and to have the chance to love again was something that I did not understand how to handle.

I am most ashamed of not taking your own fears and concerns at heart and falling head first into a romance that was very one sided. Your life was full of pain and torment and even though I did not know to what extent this entailed I should have still been aware and awake enough to see through the walls you put around yourself.

Moral of the story: Don't fall in love with crazy bitches

Sorry for the emo post but when I spend time alone with my thoughts I relive a lot of my own mistakes so that I will do my best to not relive them. Every situation has a cause, effect, and a lesson to be learned. I pray that I have finally learned mine.

New Year Same Bull shit

2010-01-04T04:04:00.000-06:00

Please do not be misled by the title. This is not going to be a bitch and moan session about how my life sucks or anything of that matter and should my life sucks it would seem that since I am the only one in control of me it would be my own god damned fault for my life going to hell in the first place. So where to begin (again)?

I started this blog about 3 months ago while I was deciding on whether or not I wanted to build another website. So I am going to take advantage of the free services while i can during the development process of yet another fucking website that I will get bored with come a month after its completion.

The only reason why I build websites is to ensure that my own talents in the creation of digital space is up to par with the standard of the interwebs. Needless to say I am very far behind so my next creation is going to be built stictly with Drupal and it is coming along nicely.

2009 kind of ended in a weird way for me. Around October I started to get back into the music that was at one time in my life something that was very precious to me. However with life acting in the fickle and spontaneous ways that it does, I seperated myself from that scene to follow other avenues of self destruction.

I do not know how deep I want to get back into music yet; As of right now I am merely testing the waters and seeing if I still have the heart and the talent to start doing shows and playing with other people. Strange how meeting new people will ignite the creativity that was once thought lost.

The clock has just struck 4am and it is time to rest. Sleep is the one gift given to those that hurt. It is a chance to forget about who you are for however long amount of time you give yourself to rest. Well...unless you are haunted by nightmares of whatever it was that caused you pain....in that case you are just fucked.

Fun week...not really..

2009-09-10T20:39:00.000-05:00

I thought that I was finally going to start making some progress towards getting some bills paid off and being able to enjoy some extra income in the way of buying a new DS and such up until yesterday.

It seems that Murphey's law of anything that can go wrong will go wrong is very true. I woke up yesterday morning, felt really ill and had some bathroom issues, did my business and started feeling better so I decided I would get ready and head to work, so I hop in the shower, get dressed and I go out to my car and the fucker will not start. so I think that I just need to jump my car, maybe I left my lights on or a door cracked or something stupid. Two people tried to jump me and nothing, no cliking sound not shit, so I call the dealer and he is like well bring it in...yeah Im going to push this fucker 100 miles..okay. So then I call a couple of repair places and no one can give me a straight answer, so I talk to one of my friends whose best friend is a mechanic and they were supposed to be here around a half an hour ago and they will not answer their phone, so my car is fucked right now, and I cannot afford a dealership cost until next week. Thankfully Whitten is willing to pick my ass up to take me to work.

Next thing to happen yesterday was I removed my old box spring since it was tore up and broken down, get it all moved out and after I finished vaccumiing the carpet I pulled the cord out of the wall and it snapped back and broke my monitor, so FML.

Im hoping I can get my car fixed this weekend or Im going to be pretty fucked next week in the way of transportation, I do not know how much whitten will be able to take me to work, but Im sure something will work itself out.

Broke Bitches

2009-08-29T03:44:00.001-05:00

So today I had a pretty fun argument with the ex/roommate over her inability to give a shit about any one else other than herself. It started off with me having a couple of her sodas, so this morning I see a sticky note on the box letting me know that I have over stepped my bounds, so rather than drinking a soda, I have the last glass (less than) of her orange juice. This seems to be a bigger deal than soda now post argument, but I left a reply on the sticky note that was attached letting her know that I need her to bitch at me for important stuff, not soda.

Shit proceeded to hit the fan, because when I got home I had 3 sticky notes attached to my monitor, one was her giving her miss independent attitude and telling me that she will sticky up whatever she damn well pleases, which is funny, and pointless, and also about me drinking her OJ. So I decide that I may have over stepped my bounds and the last 8 months of me supporting her broke ass does not count for anything, so i decide I will just replace the drink today after work.

A heated exchange takes place over all of these facts about how it is a matter of respect blah blah thats over etc etc. So after the conversation she tells me that she will not be able to take care of her half of the rent, so I ask why since she has had a job for well over a month and needs to start pulling her own weight. Also, as a side note, I saw this coming because I made sure to remind her that next week rent was due, and she was giving me these little quirks about how she will try and have the money, so I saw this coming. Anyways, long story short she is a broke bitch who can't handle responsibility and I regret ever brining her here. I can see why her mom beat her, she is a total bitch about everything, and no one is right but her, and she takes no responsibility for her life.

Boredom

2009-08-28T05:10:00.000-05:00

Among the waving trees I wait and watch and hope, yet all that ever becomes of it is boredom. I do not know what it is that I am waiting for, yet I know that I must.

This week has not been one of the more pleasant weeks that I have experienced. I think that most of the unpleasantness stems from the fact that I do not get any days off this week. I am not looking forward to over time this weekend, especially since I cannot even sit in my own seat during the back log weekend. If all of the teams are going to be pretty much all together anyways...then what is the point of putting us in differing pods? Whatever, the manager assigned to this project is a fucking dip shit, so it makes sense that stupid shit like this has happened.

I have an hour and a half before I need to get ready for work. (Another smooth move that seems to be commonplace with other people is that my schedule became switched. So I have to come in from 8am - 5pm tomorrow, even though there is a training class that falls within my shift). So with that time I think that I am going to get through a couple episodes of Soul Eater, and then get my happy ass to work.

Regret: The sleeping cruelty

2009-08-24T21:43:00.000-05:00

There are many who are lost in this world, hoping to find a way to a happier and successful end. I am one of those people. I have stumbled through life think that just getting by would help me to realize my dreams. Now a part of me wishes to go back and make a greater effort towards exerting myself in the direction that I am finally realizing.

Regret is a cruelty that helps us remember what we long to forget. I refuse to let what I have failed at in the past prevent me from understanding what I need to do to achieve the future that I wish to have. There is still a part of me that is broken. A part of me that regardless of how much I try to repair the damage that has been done I can do nothing but watch the images of what happened float through my mind. I lost her, forever, I wish nothing more than to go back and relive our last healthy days together over and over again. I have never felt so alive, so loved, so accepted. I have been afraid to love, I understand what it is like to lose someone that was closer than family to me of cancer. I hope that I was able to ease some of her pain in her final days.

My child, why have you haunted me these long years? Why have your cries awoken my deepest sleep? The tears I shed for you and your mother were the most I have shared for any thing and I long for nothing more than to hold you both close to me. I think of you both often, and I hope that whatever is past this life, you are happy in it. I will join you when my own time has come.

Fuck life and all of its ignorance. I pity those who cannot look past their own measly issues to realize what great chances are still left to be enjoyed. I have to live with my own regrets, and I am certain that I will make plenty more, but I have a life to carry out, and there is nothing more powerful against regret than an ultimate determination to figure out what the fuck we are here for.

Imagination

2009-08-24T01:00:00.000-05:00

I have always had a very vivid imagination. I have created stories and worlds and settings for most of my life. I have often wondered what causes my own imagination to be. I have always loved stories that involve some great and epic adventure where the line between good and evil is set, and the tale of the hero is one that follows a winding path to see whether or not success will conclude his adventure.

These stories interest me mostly due to the fact that in the real world there is no set adventure. We have to pick our way through the nonsense and the schemes and scams that make up our daily routine and for many it is just a constant repetition of trying to get through the day. We go home eat watch television till we finally fall asleep and repeat the cycle over again. Personally, I feel that we are made for something better, I have yet to figure out what that "better" is or what it entails, however, I do my best to ensure that I am always working towards something. I have turned my life into a series of adventures that most would consider mundane, and I do this because I do not want my own creativity to suffer due to lack of exercise.

Last Night in Newtown

2009-08-23T19:44:00.000-05:00

Last night I had the opportunity to go to a new place to drink and had a nice relaxing evening listening to music in a new subdivision off of 94 in St Charles Missouri. First of all this subdivision was very movie-set esque, and to make matters worse the town hall looked exactly like the town hall from Back to the Future.

Anyways we did a typical pub crawl, go to a place have some food, have some drinks and then move onto the next bar and repeat the same thing. Justin, Ernestine and I made the trek out and we had a lot of fun. New people are always exciting to meet, and these people we no exception. There is nothing like lewd conversation among strangers to make the awkwardness go away.

The first bar that we went to was called Beatniks and for entertainment they had a music couple that played a lot of good music. They played anything from Pink Floyd, to the Eagles, and quite a bit of newer stuff like Umbrella by Rhianna. The weirdest part about this bar was that in the front there were a bunch of dummies, and of course after a few drink we decided to take advantage of one:

It was a good time. When we got back to Justin's house the room started to spin and I ended up getting sick a couple of times and then passing out on his incredibly large chair. Twas a good night in Newtown.