Falling away from the creed with massive effectiveness.

For the past few days I have immersed myself in the world of Etzio in Assasins Creed 2..however...

This morning at 12am I picked up my copy of Mass Effect 2.  Yesterday I made certain that today would be reserved for Shepherd and the crew.  Once I got home and the grand unveling of what is Mass Effect was underway I am thoughly impressed with the improvements that have been made over the first part of the series.

Everything feels so right, the combat makes more sense (ammo system and weapon enhancements) and everything is much prettier.  I do not usually look at games from an angle of how pretty they look.  I am mostly focused on game play, attention to detail within story mechanics, and character development/stoy lines within RPGs.  However, this game is pretty.

I will not release any spoilers to those who have to wait to pick this game up.  I will give a forewarning...stuff gets real, very quickly.  The first hour of the game is very intense and the action is neraly non stop.  The opening cinematic was breath taking and almost disheartening.  Something very valuable and nescessary is destroyed and almost a sense of peronal loss is experienced since the first game relied heavily on what is taken away in the second.

I am at about the half way point through the game and I have not gotten bored with it.  The quests are interesting as well as meaningful to which path you want to take.  The renegade and paragon paths are still existent in the second game and there are a lot more choices at your disposal to determine what type of player you will be.  There are also special abilities that are gained by you and your party that are directly related to your choices and how loyal they are to your cause.

Once again I do not wish to divulge any secrets of the game so please do not ask.  If you liked the first game, pick up the second you owe it to yourself to play what I will consider now as one of my favorite gamer series of all time.

360 Elite and Asssins Creed 2

Finally the day came where I was able to afford getting a 360 again.  I have been trying to figure out exactly what I wanted to pursue more.  I have determined that even though I love music I would rather keep it as a secondary hobby and focus on gaming and game journalism.   

Friday 'happened' and all of a sudden I had money burning a hole in my pocket and I had been wanting to pick up the 360 prior to going to work and get a few hours of play in before I had to leave. 

My paycheck landed onto my  card around 11:45 i put some "outside" clothes on (I usually run around my apartment in sweat pants and a t-shirt) and head over to Granite City where a 24hr Walmart store is located. I stopped at my local Circle K gas station to get an energy drink (since the plan was to be up till about 5, get a couple hours of sleep and head to work) and while I was there, a cop pulls up and starts frisking a man who was standing outside of the store. 

I drive all the way out to Granite City which thankfully is a straight shot from my apartment and not too long of a drive (about 15 minutes).The sad part is that when I reached Granite City,  Walmart twas closed.  This made me pissed and happy.  Pissed because I would have to wait till after work to purchase my 360 and happy that I could at least get more sleep for work.

And then work happened...:(

Clocked out right on time headed towards home to my local target and picked up my new 360 Elite and Assassins Creed dos. 

The reset of the weekend has been a mixture of movies and gaming.  AC2 is absolutely amazing and I have very little negative to say about it.  Although one bug or glitch or whatever I run into from time to time is when I do a leap of faith off of a view point rather than doing the leap of faith I fall to my death.  More than likely its something that I am doing wrong.  This and a couple of weird camera herks and jerks that have also killed me are all that I can complain about right now.  The tons of side missions and quests that are available feel original and I am glad that every new mission I take feels like I have never done it before.

I am about half way done.  I am wanting to finish before Tuesday since Mass Effect 2 comes out.  Then my life will be complete until March 9th when Final Fantasy 13 comes out.  This is going to be a great year for gaming.  2009 sucked for a lot of reasons, 2010 will be the shit!

Nice and Easy

I love the weekend.  I give myself a few little chores to do so I don't feel like a complete and total slob and the rest of the time is spent doing what I love to do most.

1. Playing video games
2. Forums
3. Watching anime
4. Reading
5. Eating

There are in no particular order.  Some weekends I will watch a lot of anime while others will be devoted to the site, with any other combination of the rest.

Leah is a good friend of mine and she came over this evening to hang out.  We had not hung out in a long time and Friday night she talked to me and told me that she had recently had a bad ending to a relationship so tonight we got the chance to talk about stuff.

I am really wanting this week to go by quickly.  Whitten started up a new 4e DnD campaign this weekend and it was nice to be able to play a table top RPG again.  I am playing a Warlock named Sardon who has kind of taken a leading role at this point in the story.  His back story will consist of him trying to prove that he is beyond the evilness of his family.  I cannot wait to see how his story progresses!

Anime Fest 2010!

I have had the last 5 days off and Wednesday I will be making my glorious return to Work Order Accuracy :'( . 

So what have I done with myself over the last while...why absolutely jack shit of course!  With a nice mixture of Counterstrike, Suikoden Tierkris (RPG for the DS) and Lunar Knights (Another RPG for the DS) along with catching up on some anime that I have been needing to get into.

Currently I am going through the Soul Eater series again.  This is by far my favorite anime series.  Currently Soul Eater runs 51 episodes (2 seasons) and I pray they bring the new manga material into animated form.  Hell I wish they would bring the manga over to the US quicker.  In Japan Soul Eater is  up to volume 60 something and in the US Volume 2 will release in February.  FML I need to know how the story progresses.  I am half tempted to sign up for Japanese courses in college.  HMMMM maybe an Internation Business degree with a minor in Japanese studies :D

Second on the list is a new anime that I found called Dragonauts.  Freaking amazing, so good in fact I do not want to watch the last episodes but I have to since the story is so well done that the ending muswt be superb (if it isn't Wayne Brady is going to have to choke a bitch)

Last but not least is Evangelion: Neon Genesis.  Sadly the version that I have is english dubbed so I have to listen to horrible American voice actors but the story is very entertaining and perverted which is a-okay in my book.  I hope to have this series finished (although my understanding is that there really is no true ending to it because the creator went clinically insane during the production of the second and final series and third movie).

So yeah you must be thinking I am a big nerd, which of course, you would be right. :)

Reflection

As I am going through the recovery process of a relationship that was very painful I have started to look back at the choices that I have made and realize that I am my own worst enemy.  I am a relatively happy person but I always feel alone and I find it difficult to let anyone get close to me.  Even though the issues that we had were well founded in the evidence and situations that came to pass there is a lot that I should of held myself accountable towards.

I loved you and wanted you to be safe and secure and have the ability to understand me.  I should have known better.  Eventually I will realize that a relationship that was built as quickly as our own has no real foundation in permanence and any understanding  is brutally superficial.

When I brought you here knowing what I know now everything would have been different.  Recounting the past is easy when standing at the thresh hold of the future.  I was blinded my own desire to not be alone and to have the chance to love again was something that I did not understand how to handle.  

I am most ashamed of not taking your own fears and concerns at heart and falling head first into a romance that was very one sided.  Your life was full of pain and torment and even though I did not know to what extent this entailed I should have still been aware and awake enough to see through the walls you put around yourself.

Moral of the story: Don't fall in love with crazy bitches

Sorry for the emo post but when I spend time alone with my thoughts I relive a lot of my own mistakes so that I will do my best to not relive them.  Every situation has a cause, effect, and a lesson to be learned.  I pray that I have finally learned mine.

New Year Same Bull shit

Please do not be misled by the title.  This is not going to be a bitch and moan session about how my life sucks or anything of that matter and should my life sucks it would seem that since I am the only one in control of me it would be my own god damned fault for my life going to hell in the first place.  So where to begin (again)?

I started this blog about 3 months ago while I was deciding on whether or not I wanted to build another website.  So I am going to take advantage of the free services while i can during the development process of yet another fucking website that I will get bored with come a month after its completion. 

The only reason why I build websites is to ensure that my own talents in the creation of digital space is up to par with the standard of the interwebs.  Needless to say I am very far behind so my next creation is going to be built stictly with Drupal and it is coming along nicely.

2009 kind of ended in a weird way for me.  Around October I started to get  back into the music that was at one time in my life something that was very precious to me.  However with life acting in the fickle and spontaneous ways that it does, I seperated myself from that scene to follow other avenues of self destruction.

I do not know how deep I want to get back into music yet;  As of right now I am merely testing the waters and seeing if I still have the heart and the talent to start doing shows and playing with other people.  Strange how meeting new people will ignite the creativity that was once thought lost.

The clock has just struck 4am and it is time to rest.  Sleep is the one gift given to those that hurt.  It is a chance to forget about who you are for however long amount of time you give yourself to rest.  Well...unless you are haunted by nightmares of whatever it was that caused you pain....in that case you are just fucked.